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We have relationship 1 year 8 days. But the relationship was only sweet for 5 months the rest of my days filled with tears. It all started when he came to Jakarta on my birthday. He did not tell me with the intention of giving a surprise. He arrived at my house and that night he stayed at my house. I happen to live alone.
That night he started checking on my HP and social media. She finds my chat history with another guy who calls me dear when I have nothing to do with him, we are just friends but he does not care. To prove to him that I was not cheating I called him to speak directly to him but instead of getting better, he got even angrier and cursed him and cursed me too.
He threatened to go home but I persuaded him to even beg him not to leave me. Perhaps out of compassion for me he did not come home and still stay with me for 11 days. I bought him a ticket home with my money and I drove him to the airport with profound sadness. My tears never stopped and she came home with very many messages especially to keep things from behind her.
I thought our relationship was good again, but it was not. Her thoughts are getting negative, to mention I'm a simple girl. And even those words are not just delivered to me but to my friends as well. Without my knowledge, he telephoned with my friend and told me that I was a "sex-thirsty" woman.
My friends did not tell me because they were afraid to make me sad that they showed their displeasure with my boyfriend through their attitudes. And I really feel it. They secretly blocked my boyfriend's phone number, I knew it was my boyfriend who said he could not reach my friends anymore asking me. I asked my friends and they agreed that they had blocked his number on the grounds that he was intruding. Later I know because they do not like my boyfriend to bad-mouth me because my friends know me very well, what he accuses is not in line with reality. My friends have tried to convince him but he still does not believe it.
In order to keep my relationship with her, I changed my attitude 180 degrees. I'm no longer talking to anyone other than work. I never joke like I used to anyone even I can say I almost never smile or laugh at anyone. Whoever greeted me always ignored me.
I delete and block all male contacts on my HP including those working relationships. My change was not to make my boyfriend's mind positive but it just got worse. All sorts of allegations were made to me. Every day the phone must be active. Almost 24 hours the phone never dies, even we do not chat anyway the phone should not be turned off to sleep at night.
Not infrequently my family complains because it is difficult to contact me. But I always look for reasons to defend myself. If the phone dies within seconds, he's accused me of all sorts. Often we fight on the phone when I'm in the office. I can not even hold back tears in front of my office mate, and that's very embarrassing. But my friends nobody interfered. They just kept quiet as if nothing had happened to me. Because they are already very fed up with my boyfriend.
In July he came back to Jakarta, it was also me who bought the ticket because it was me who asked him to come. Incidentally, I'm a long holiday Lebaran, he's in Jakarta for 4 months, all the cost of my life is the responsibility. Not a little money I spend on us to make her happy. In fact, I even sold my jewelry without her knowing that I was running out of money.
I borrowed my parents' money to pay the rent. Even though he's near me does not make this relationship happy and away from the fight, every day we fight and still the same phone still have to connect with it. I'm very depressed but I'm afraid to make a decision. Even if he is the one who made a mistake he can turn things around to me wrong by leveraging my old mistake (my friend who calls me dear).
He always cornered me, I'm a person who does not really like to argue let alone fuss about the same thing every day. If he blames me I can only be silent and cry and apologize for pleading with him so he does not leave me. Often he threatened to leave me, then I would beg and cry all night so he would not leave me. I do not know what made me so. Though I myself realize that our relationship is not healthy.
I am very, very depressed, I persevered because I thought very tired if I had to start a new relationship again with others. My body is getting thinner, my face is shabby, it says my friends. But I do not care, the important thing I'm not left, my girlfriend. Often I pretend to be happy in front of him or in front of my friends. I laughed but my heart and mind did not. Every day I'm always scared, fight what will happen today? Once I was silent as he began to start a debate, instead of making him calm and think but instead became more accusatory because of my silence.
Until finally he came home because his cousin will get married. Again I bought him a ticket and drove him to the airport. I gave him some money and the money was the last in my savings. I cried because of his return but a little relief. Somehow in my heart, I said that our relationship will end after this. And sure enough, when he got there he began to change, but at the airport, he had promised that our relationship would get better.
He started lazily to reply to my message, began lazing with me. I'm still trying to be patient and endure. Just on the 22nd of November 2016 afternoon, I sent a message to her asking about her activities that day but she replied flawlessly, her reply was non-connected. I was getting annoyed but I tried to stay calm.
That afternoon I was determined to end our relationship if we were fighting, somehow the power from which and the beliefs of which made me firm with my decision. I recalled our relationship from the beginning till the last return, I did not feel happy at all, though I remember the good things we passed.
At that time I felt stupid to stick with him. I feel sick with him. Then I prayed, I prayed earnestly for my decision to be the best way. So I'm strong after that, so I'm not sorry. I dared to ask him what he wanted, he was a little rambling and turned the question to me until finally, he replied, "Leave me." The words were often spoken but I refused and he came back good to me. I replied to her message, "Well, I left you now." After seeing that he had read my message, I immediately wiped out all his contacts. And breathe a sigh of relief, I did not cry a bit.
After that, I started to improve my relationship with my friends, started smiling. Start laughing and joking even though at first they still like to touch on my attitude change in the last few months. Until I told my friend how my relationship ended, they told me all what my ex-lover told them about me. But they were relieved that I no longer had a relationship with her.
Actually, they have been wanting me to break my relationship with him. Three days after our relationship ended he called me back but I did not care, even for months he was still trying to reach me, begging again. And now I'm happy with my new love who loves me, understands me, trusts me and treats me like a woman. I love her so much.